For the time being, I'm studying scripture a bit differently. Perhaps I'll take up the study of Jesus the Christ again at a later date, perhaps not.
"...My soul hungered; and I kneeled down before my maker, and I cried unto Him in mighty prayer and supplication for mine own soul...and there came a voice unto me saying...thy sins are forgiven thee, and thou shalt be blessed...I...knew that God could not lie; wherefore my guilt was swept away. And I said: Lord, how is it done? And He said unto me: Because of they faith in Christ, whom thou hast never before heard nor seen...thy faith hath made thee whole," Enos 1:4-8.
My gratitude is full for the mercy of God to give us a means of repentance. I have joy in my heart and peace in my soul because of this principle. My guilt is swept away and I am made whole; the idea boggles my mind. However, I know the feelings Enos describes. My mistakes don't define me, because Jesus paid the price to forgive my debts.